30 Aug

Today is a day when I am reminded just how much my husband has lost.  Today I had to help him figure out how a hard drive went into a PC.  Today I had to try and diagnose why his laptop will no longer connect to the internet and when I couldn’t figure it out I had to back up his files and re-install the operating system on his laptop.

Why does this make me sad you might wonder?  Well because in 2007 before the exacerbation that started this whole chain of events my husband was a Computer Network Engineer.  He was a master PC Tech.  He could build a computer from scratch and was a pro at diagnosing networking problems.  Before 2007 I would go to him when I couldn’t figure these things out and people paid him a hefty salary to keep the network for an entire hospital running 24/7.  He was good at it, VERY GOOD.

Today he could not remember how the hard drive fit in the case so he could screw it back together.  Thank GOD he remembered how to plug it all in because I really am no good at hardware at all.  Today he could not diagnose a problem with ipconfig (and neither can I which is why I chose to perform a fresh install of the OS and start over).

In 2007 he was one of an elite group of MCSE Certified Networking Professionals.  Today he can’t even set up his own email.

Life is not fair.


Posted by on August 30, 2014 in Cognitive Loss, Daily Living, History


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2 responses to “Today…

  1. Marilynn

    August 30, 2014 at 11:47 pm

    I to know how u feel. My husband like yours spent 23 years in the military (navy) then went to work for Boeing. Then this terrible disease. I knew it was there but he didn’t want to know. My husband know is a parapalegic and is losing his upper body. He can’t even work the computer anymore. I have been married to him for 29years. the last 12 taking care of him. I know the frustration, the anger and the hurt u go thru. I can only hope that maybe one day I will have peace and a life. take care.


  2. marriedmonster

    August 31, 2014 at 9:52 pm

    Thank you for your comment Marilynn, it is so hard to see them go downhill so much. The cognitive changes are worse for me than the physical ones because his personality has changed as well. We are attempting to live the best we can and get as much time as we can doing things we enjoy. Someday we will be much more limited I am sure. Hang in there.



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